Monday, July 27, 2009

The Move * Survivor's Baggage *Ramblings

Hey all,

Well, We're in Tsfat!

Well the fact that this computer is up and running is a good sign. We are almost settled here. Its a bit of a fixer upper place but its really nice! Great yard space, lots of space in general.

We are still in boxes, somewhat. Slowly slowly, we're getting there.

At my parents house, I sometimes had the chore of watering the garden, but now I have to understand that that's a real job -not a chore. If it doesn't get done or delegated at least, the grass, the orange tree, the palm tree, flowers, everything will go. *gulp*. At times I miss being a kid! lol.

Now that we're somewhat settled, hubby has to get back to work, and I am back in charge of maintaining the home. I still have to figure out stuff such as a boiler and we have to buy tanks of gas (instead of having a gas company supply us gas).

The homes here seems to me more builder and repairman friendly than the homes in Jerusalem or in America. In America, you'd have to search hard before you know where an opening pipe is to repair it -its usually covered with plaster, wall, etc. Here, its as if the houses were meant more for the builders to easily find what they need rather than a simple homeowner who just lives there. Also, many in Tsfat are actually homebuilders, repairmen, etc. I think I'm going to subscribe to a home improvement magazine for tips. I don't want to appear like a wimpy gringa around here.

Everyone so far have been quite friendly. I appreciate that. One social difference from Jerusalem is that the tourists seem more in-the-face; they're everywhere. Another interesting difference is there could be a row of homes one after the other and when you look more carefully, you see one of the houses is not really a house but a kever of a tzaddik (the burial of a holy righteous individual who passed away)! Its as if the past and the future and the present just melds and everyone is living together.

There are still lots of repairs underway: A leaking air conditioner, living room remodeling, and still lots of things to do: connecting the washer, buying a better garden hose, etc. It seems endless!


I heard from a neighbor the whole Gates /arrest goings on. That made me all the more want to go online. I couldn't imagine all the news I was missing.

Ech! what a downer!!

Hubby finally gets the computer hooked up and I see the news: controversies, murders, rapes, and so on and so on. Then again what was I expecting? World peace? Hmmmm...that would've been nice hahaha hahah.

Survivor's Baggage

After the move, I got really, but really down. Don't know why. All my insecurities rose up and I became fearful and protective of my boundaries. I almost got resentful that Mr. Black fire white fire was trying to partake in designing how the new kitchen should be (I didn't stick my nose in designing his office! lol). My main concern was that there would be two sinks (one for dairy foods and one for meat foods since the two are not eaten together) and a space for the stove. Everything else, I wasn't so concerned about. Well, thankfully, my sister got me out of my funk and reminded me that I got what I wanted and why should I fuss over the "extras" if I don't really care about it. Okay. Thanks Sister!

Almost everyday I feel like I'm shedding the ideas and images that the Western world created and offers to people as the ideal in marital relationships. I think it just doesn't work. Perhaps it just doesn't work for me or for the society I'm in.

For example, at times when hubby and I get jokey jokey and playful and all that, I tend to become very "people pleasing" and will bend my own boundaries. But then when he oversteps and I feel insulted or that my space is infringed upon, I get bothered and sad and upset and see him as the enemy! lol. Too much extremes. Somehow -without being bland- I have to find a way to be. I have to be able to be warm and lovey dovey without compromising my borders.

For example, if things are going great, that still doesn't mean I have to be with all the kids all the time.

If things are going great, I still don't have to give in on what matters to me.

If things are going great, I am still me with my boundaries and concerns.

Somehow I have to remember that.

Don't get me wrong, I"m not blaming him for being assertive in what he wants. He's fine! I have to also be assertive in what I want. Its just that it can seem like an argument to me.

Another interesting, slightly related thing that happened:

The last days in our old house, we spent Shabbat at a hotel. Just easier. While there this lady with a NY accent came in and saw me in the lounge area. I was sitting with my prayer book and the kids were playing about. She comes and asks me all sorts of personal questions. I found it all to be rude and crass. Finally, in order to make her go away I decided to be rude and crass as well. And so I was. But she took it all in stride and understood that I wanted her to leave.

I realize right then that if someone is crass, its because.... they are crass. They probably understand and appreciate crassness. If I want to convey to them something, I have to do it crassly. Did I get the right lesson from this? Kinda like with the humble act humbly, with the wicked act wickedly type of thing???

Anyway, I have to understand that everyone is out for their own interest. Everyone has different levels of crassness. I may think myself refined, but to another, I may be crass!

And this could be why each religion says only "their people" will "go to heaven" i.e. their IDEAL heaven. I think what that statement really is saying is that people who follow x guidelines and values will find y as an ideal "heaven" for them, whereas people who follow a different set of values and guidelines, that same y will NOT be a heaven for them, instead a Z would be their heaven. Anyways, there I go again getting all spurrrtual. hahah hahah.

So, I 'm hooked up again and in between house stuff I hope to read all the blogs and see what's up with everyone one! I already noticed an interesting post at Black Woman Blow the Trumpet on disciplining children.....Looking forward.

Friday, July 17, 2009

Good bye for Now * BW and New Beginnings * Rosh Hashana

Okay, I've come to the last stretch. We've packed up nearly everything in the house. Amidst all the boxes was the unpacked computer. Finally I've got to put it away.


Shabbat at a hotel. I can't stand all the mess and boxes. No chance of a Shabbat relaxation. Gotta have that creative "Amen". (Thanks for the lesson, F. Domino).

Saturday night, meet we meet with lawyers to finalize things.

Sunday morning. The big 3 hour ride to the mystical city of Tzfat! Hopefully everything will be okay with the movers and us catching the bus.

Sunday afternoon. Hopefully we'll unpack --probably only the necessities. Computer hopefully? lol.


The next great (Jewish) holiday is Rosh Hashana. That will mark the new Jewish new year of 5770. That's a pretty big deal. Every 10s, 100s, 1000s usually mark times for changes. Truly, BW are on the verge of some serious changes. But will it be for the good? Can we insure that it will be for the good? What are the various ways to obtain Godly blessings? What are the various ways to mitigate bad tidings? Who are the key players that we ought to get to know?

I'm so fascinated and wish for only good!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

BW's Length of Days vs Long Years

This is a speed post because I really should be packing, but...

One thing I see in many self empowerment blogs are full and quick agreement with the message. That's great. But how long lasting is it?

I would rather folks were skeptical in the short run and became deep, permanent believers of the self empowerment messages rather than the great "YES" and then the long day is over. Actually, the best would be short run AND long run empowerment.

(maybe I'll clean up this post. Maybe not.)


At SOME point I have to pack this computer....

...but WAOD blog is sooooo interesting these days! lol.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Sparks of the Hidden Light

Imagine a radio. Its plugged to the wall and turned on. Great music is playing. Makes you wanna snap your fingers and tap your feet...maybe even dance abit!

Then someone cuts the cord.

That is how I imagine religion. Lots of electricity are being emitted from the wall onto the part of the plug that is still connected to the wall. But at the point where the cable is cut, all you see are sparks and cackling lights. They seem dazzling. But to many they also seem .... pointless.

Then you have the other side. The cords and cables still attached to the radio. To many it seems.... dead, mundane, pointless.

It would be great when the day comes that this cord and cable is attached again. When the music can play again!

Then we'll be able to understand "connections" such as .....

The connection between destroying evil decrees..... and the holiness of dancing.
The connection between prophecying ................. and music.
The connection between understanding .............. and wine
The connection between wisdoms .................... and oil

Even the more subtle things can be discussed (without my hesitation) such as...

The connection between people's anger ............... and it giving fuel to wild behavior in wild animals (that is why it says, that in the end of times the leopard can lie together with the sheep, etc. No anger because everyone accepts that God is behind everything, leads to no more wild behavior on the part of the wild animals -those who have the propensity to catch such "vibes")

The connection between lack of charity ..................... and famine, or pestilence in the world.

But for now, we live in the dark....

Where is First Domino???

What happened? Where do bloggers go when they don't blog? First Domino, you are missed...

Back, Sort of

I was away on a trip to Tsfat which grew longer and longer. Now I'm back. Due to the great heat here, it took four buses to get everyone back to Jerusalem --the buses kept over heating.

I have so much to post but its all jumbled in my head at the momebt. I'll have to make each letter take a number. That way they'll all wait in line til I get them all out of my head. lol. Alas! but I must pack as we are moving.

Hopefully, I have some time to post.

Thursday, July 9, 2009

Craving for the Holy Temple


Wouldn't it be grand if there was a temple of worship where all were invited? No one had to convert to nothing. No proselytizing, just warm welcomes. Wouldn't it be grand if our prayers were assured to be answered at such a place?

There was such a place long ago. The Holy Temple.

Let's have it again.

The Second Law of Thermodynamics 2

This post is an extension from that post.

So, using the Esther story because it seems like a concentrated & sped up version of the other Biblical recountings...

Remember the beginning of the story:

1 Now it came to pass in the days of Ahasuerus--this is Ahasuerus who reigned, from India even unto Ethiopia, over a hundred and seven and twenty provinces--

5 And when these days were fulfilled, the king made a feast unto all the people that were present in Shushan the castle, both great and small, seven days, in the court of the garden of the king's palace;

King Xerxes (Ahasuerus) decided to have a feast. Everyone was encouraged to participate. King Xerxes being not Jewish was serving unkosher food, but the Jews participated in it anyway. This would eventually be the link to their unstable condition -because this shows already a weakness in holding on to their principles.

What was the basis for their fear? Look at what happened to Vashti, the Queen no less! She was made to part with her head!! Nevertheless, it was required that the Jews hold fast --which they didn't.

Fast forward to a different part of the story. Haman plotted to destroy them and got the okay from the King. So something had to be done quickly to ameliorate the situation.

Queen Esther, the new queen, calls on a three day fast by her people. The energy begins to change. The 2nd law of thermodynamics is in the works.

Now for the turbine:

"...Esther put on her royal apparel..."

The garment and royalty.

In kabbalah, clothing represents a "force field" a protection for the inner person and "his wife" or malchut or his mission -however you want to phrase it. It is also described as a representative of "chashmal" a "surrounding glow" (modern Hebrew translates chashmal as "electricity"). Basically its the protector of a person's inner strength.

This is why we stress that a person not be seen with torn clothes or stained clothes. Its representative of that person's inner strength not being protected, or a sign of vulnerability.

So, she picked up a shield. Let's continue...

"...So Esther drew near, and touched the top of the sceptre..."

The sceptre is the king's sceptre: Basically, she comes before God /King. The trick about this story is that at times when they say "King" one doesn't know if they mean King Xerxes or the King of Kings. Let's continue...

"And Esther said: 'If it seem good unto the king, let the king and Haman come this day unto the banquet that I have prepared for him...."

She attempts to REVERSE the state of affairs. This requires intelligence. The ability to see where the source of a problem began, so that one can rectify it. She knew that it was because they had succumbed to pressure and went to the feast of the king that caused them to be in this predicament, so now Queen Esther is reversing the role. Now she's having a banquet. She's the one in charge, She's the one creating and enforcing something. She's doing it on her own terms -kosher. BW take heed.

"...Then the king said: 'Cause Haman to make haste, that it may be done as Esther hath said...."
(Book of Esther 5:5)

See the quickness that the King (of kings) fulfills the request!

"So the king and Haman came to banquet with Esther the queen..."
(B of Esther 7:1)

And it came to pass. Her 'creation' or her "law" was fulfilled.

"Then Esther the queen answered and said: 'If I have found favour in thy sight, O king, and if it please the king, let my life be given me at my petition, and my people at my request.." (B of Esther 7:3)

The petition. This is what she wants done: that her life and that of her people should be saved. The end result.

And the rest is history. They get the bad guy, their lives are saved. They renew their devotion to the Torah and to God. Yay! Another holiday is created! Let's eat!!!

So, to review, what is the turbine? My guess is that its a series of acts. 1) good presentation -which translates in the physical world as putting on proper attire. This serves as a shield for the person. 2) the act of repentance. Being honest with one's self at what was done wrong and rectifying it. And 3) being grateful when its all over, and renewing one's principles and path of righteousness.

A more general way of putting it is that I think the spiritual turbine would be the movements we do as a result of having prayed, praised, or verbally read and learned some Biblical passage. The aroused movement will God willing cause a great influx of energy and its up to us to use it towards what it is we're yearning for.

House of war/ Dar Al Harb Map?

I think it would be convenient to everyone if there was a Dar al Harb Map. Then everyone will know where they stand and what to expect.

Dar al harb means house of war in Arabic. There are three major categories that a country can fall into. Dar al Harb is one of them. It is a term classically referring to those countries where the Muslim law is not in force, in the matter of worship and the protection of the faithful and Dhimmis.[4] The term refers to the relationship between an Islamic state and neighbouring non-Muslim states with whom it has not signed a peace treaty or pact. wiki.

Basically countries that are not yet under Muslim laws.

Also, Dar al Hudna, House of calm is important. Those are place or countries that once was under Muslim control but somehow the Muslims lost control over it. And so its a basically a country that is considered in a state of waiting. Waiting until the resident Muslims are powerful enough to regain control.

(the third one is Dar al Islam, House of Islam -where Islam is in place)

I think it would be beneficial to have a map where these things are listed so that simple folks who just want to live and not get involved in religious wars (jihads) will know this. That way, they can determine better where they want to live and factor this in.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Kicking into Redemption Mode 5

There are many ways to grow and learn. The most chilling and popular way is through pain! Having our blinders yanked from our eyes hurt. Realizing a friend was not a friend hurts. Knowing you made a mistake due to lack of will power hurts, etc.

So Israel Ber Odesser who was supposed to fast with the rest of Israel, was crestfallen because he had succumbed to his hunger and ate.

After days of secretly crying, pleading for forgiveness and basically kicking himself and being depressed,he had a strong urge to open up one of his Breslov books.

*Warning: The rest of the story is quite incredible******************

He opened the book and found a note. It was addressed to him as a dear "student" and in the note, it expressed knowledge that Israel had broken the fast on that fast day (17th of Tammuz).

Israel was shocked. How could anyone have known? Who wrote this note? The only conclusion he could conclude was that it was from his teacher. But his "teacher" was Rebbe Nachman--- who had died so long ago!!!

It was unbelievable. Nobody wanted to believe it. But based on what was written on the note, it was hard to not come to this conclusion.

Within that note is the now famous: Na Nach Nachma Machman M'Uman!

Israel Saba urged everyone to spread far and wide the books of Rebbe Nachman. He also said, "I am Na Nach Nachma Nachman M'Uman".


From that time on something new was brought into this world. Some say this is the new song and that phrase "Na Nach Nachma Nachman M'Uman" has been put into all sorts of melodies and danced and sung by the followers of Israel Ber Odesser -aka Israel Saba.


I decided to focus on this event and try and pray and learn and see if I could understand it a bit. I am happy to say that slowly slowly God has allowed me to understand this a little bit. This is what I understand so far:

I like the positive message that the followers of Israel Odesser send out. Its like they took back Breslov -or the teachings of Rebbe Nachman and made returned it back to the individual again.

From the phrase, "I am Na Nach Nachma M'Uman" there is evidence that Israel Saba was the reincarnate of Rebbe Nachman.

The Tikkunei Zohar speaks of a song that will be sung in the end of days. There is also a teaching that it will be in a single, double, triple, and quadruple formation.

The Na Nach (minus the "Uman" part)is in that formation.

It is also taught that the name of God is encased in righteous people (tzaddikim). For example, if Joe Smith was a righteous man, kind, etc. His name would be considered an encasement or a garment for a part of God's name.

Thus, Rebbe Nachman is considered a righteous person and so his name is broken down into that formation.

Now, Rebbe Nachman was kind and very giving of much teachings. He was a popular person and a teacher. But all he wanted -what most righteous people really want- was to walk humbly with his God and live a simple life. It seems that that was granted to him through Israel ber Odesser. Odesser was the simple man. He produced no works of his own, struggled to know what he knew, was not famous until the end of his life.

On Target

With the whole Cynthia Mckinney business going on it was a bit of a bummer. As blogger were gleeful to maybe now have a valid excuse to hate Jews or Israelis or however they want to phrase it, I wasn't sure what was going on.

Then I remembered last weeks Torah reading was Parashat Balak! (Numbers 22,2-25,9) lol.

Monday, July 6, 2009

The Second Law of Thermodynamics

If I was a scientist, I would say:

The second law of thermodynamics is an expression of the universal principle of increasing entropy, stating that the entropy of an isolated system which is not in equilibrium will tend to increase over time, approaching a maximum value at equilibrium. (wikipedia)

Wiki pic:

In other words, in small teeny tiny particles experiment, we see that things tend to slow down as time moves forward. The amount of useable energy a thing has decreases as time moves forward.

(Just a reminder that the first law of thermodynamics says that energy in convertible. Either its an actual matter, actual energy or heat.)

Say we have an ice cube. Nice solid, Strong. And let's say we use this cube as a paper weight..... lol!

After a while, this ice cube's substance will expand out. It will turn into water. Evevtually the water molecules will want to expand some more and become gas! Ah heat, the final frontier -you can't get anymore expansive then that!

What?! That means theoretically, that eventually every thing will become just some gas? Some hot air? My books.. my house... me?!!

Okay. Let's not think about that for now. Science.

So, energy likes to go from great concentration to lesser concentration. Scientists have learned that this is just inevitable -that's why it became a law. We can temporarily halt this event, but that's it -temporary. But we can also "catch" the energy as it flows from one concentration to the lesser one.

With the use of a turbine - a wheel that turns as the energy passes through it. This turning wheel can be connected to an electric generator and thereby make some electricity.

I'd say all that if I was a scientist. (you can read more about this fascinating stuff in easier language here! )


If I was a Spiritual mentor, then I would say...

The second law of thermodynamics is an expression of the universal principle that eventually all that is left is one's spiritual parts and prayer.

(Just a reminder that the first law of thermodynamics says that our actions, our prayers, and the expended heat/efforts are seen as one and convertible)

Let's take a person, for example. She just sits there solid and strong. Eventually she will exert energy and excess heat and she will speak. Eventually as she lives her life and time passes, she becomes less mobile. So she talks more. Prays, shoots the breeze, jokes, learns out loud, etc.

But we can also "catch" the energy as it flows from one concentration to the lesser one.

Say somebody wants something. They stop eating, they fast and convert more energy into the less concentrated "gas" form. They pray. Now what would be the "turbine" to make the fasting and praying productive?

Let's look at the story of Esther. Persia was breathing down the necks of the Jewish people in the form of Haman who was able to get passed a decree to annihilate them. Something had to be done quickly! Mordechai and Esther came up with a plan. Fasting and prayer and on the third day ---when the engine was fully revved up-- Esther would go to King Xerxes to plead for her people...

Book of Esther. Chapter 4:
16 'Go, gather together all the Jews that are present in Shushan, and fast ye for me, and neither eat nor drink three days, night or day; I also and my maidens will fast in like manner; and so will I go in unto the king, which is not according to the law; and if I perish, I perish.'

17 So Mordecai went his way, and did according to all that Esther had commanded him.

Chapter 5:
1 Now it came to pass on the third day, that Esther put on her royal apparel, and stood in the inner court of the king's house, over against the king's house; and the king sat upon his royal throne in the royal house, over against the entrance of the house.

2 And it was so, when the king saw Esther the queen standing in the court, that she obtained favour in his sight; and the king held out to Esther the golden sceptre that was in his hand. So Esther drew near, and touched the top of the sceptre.

3 Then said the king unto her: 'What wilt thou, queen Esther? for whatever thy request, even to the half of the kingdom, it shall be given thee.'

To be continued...too sleepy.

Friday, July 3, 2009

The Crown

Certain topics are hard to get out of my head. One concern is the issue of slavery that is still going on in places like Sudan. Why are Africans seen as slaves? Why do some AA have to struggle with the gravedigger stigma? What can I do about it?

Well, attempting some Jewish aiki-jujitsu on the topic (lol!)I am reminded that mankind began in Africa. The beginning. The foundation which means Yesod in Hebrew. This term or concept is flanked to the left and to the right by other concepts that must come into play in order for the foundation/Yesod to function properly. There are two "birds" that should be around making a home in order for the nest (foundation) to be complete. A sceptor and a sword is needed for the king's kingdom. Netzach and Hod. However way you can hear this.

Take a slave and a king, strip them of their dignity and their ability to reinforce any law they put down and you get: the slave remains a slave and the king becomes a slave. The difference between the two is the dignity and the ability to reinforce the law they put down.

To me, that explains why there is a constant back and forth between hearing BF being called "slave" vs them calling themselves or each other "kings and queens". And how shall the kings and queens resume their majestic roles? Personally, I think the world depends on it but I digress.


Firstly, it is important to note that this is not relative. This is not "in relation to another race" nor does it effect any others except for how they will view BW (or BF for that matter). This isn't about powering over anyone. Its about self empowerment. Self confidence. Truth. Godliness.

True Good is good all around.

So how does one regain one's honor? You forget about it.

"He who runs away from honor, honor chases after him."

Instead, focus on the two birdies...


There is no place for laziness here. That has got to be chased away. Netzach is about being all over a concept, a topic, or a subject. Learning it from the ground up. Viewing it with different lenses until it is completely understood. Sleep it, eat it, drink it. Make it your new best friend.

I think BF and Jews are alot in common. But luckily for the Jews, there was the Torah to focus on in order to not be tainted by all the negativity that is looking for any opening to seep in and wreak havoc in a people.

So too, BF individually ought to have a main focus.

There is much talk about how BF are way too emotional, etc. Okay, it has its values, but whatever. In order to not invest too much emotions in the wrong avenues -and if there is so much emotions to go around-- so I say rechannel it. Channel it towards whatever wisdom you want to acquire.

Knowledge is something stored in the head.

The Arse!

Why is it that when some people talk they make reference to..**ahem** the arse? As if its a separate entity.

"Git your big a**** over here!!!"


Is it a mere play on words? More not-so-subtle derogatory name calling?

Like I have said many times, I have a suspicion that BF represents the Yesod of Man -the ultimate man that encompasses all of mankind. Yesod is represented by the groin area in kabbalah. So, why don't folks refer to other folks by the front side? Why only the backside?

1) That would be way vulgar!

2) When God does not show favor to someone, it is said His Face is turned away. The Backside is shown.

The backside represents no grace, and no favors. Strict, exacting judgment is at hand. And kindness is nowhere to be found it seems. We, created in His Holy Image, if we see in others...a....backside, to the point of referring to one another as backsides, what "image of God" is our spiritual eyes seeing in each other? What image are we invoking in others?

The Backside.

Is that what we want? Yes, its colorful and funny, but is that what we want?

I submit that we find more encouraging references for each other. By filling ourselves (foundation/Yesod/groin area) with wisdoms and knowledge, we are in effect creating a whole being -an upright Man- rather than scattered parts of a person -some arse without a head or the rest of a body. Its almost as if there would be no need to divide between the upper part of the body and the lower part -both parts would have a bit of holiness.

Spiritually speaking, this makes me think of knowledge vs faith. As much as we are able to, we ought to apply science and math and history to understand the world, to understand God. Where we find borders (keter) -that is, areas that we just can't understand due to the limits of the science and math that we possess that day-- then, we rely on faith. But faith should not be a dirty thing. Nor should knowledge be viewed as an uppity thing. Somehow the two must come together in a round about swirl, one feeding the other, until slowly slowly that whole spirals of knowledge, faith, knowledge, faith leads us to know God, godliness, more completeness.


Hod represents humility, empathy, splendor. This side is about taking something and bringing a little umpf! into it. Like Michael Jordan did to basketball. Like Patricia Bath did to cataract removal operations. Or Norbert Rillieux and his invention of evaporators for refined sugars.

I don't think there is a big issue in the splendor department, but I DO think humility can be rectified.

Humility is not about walking with one's head down in shame. Its not even about downplaying one's abilities. Its about KNOWING one's ability and acknowledging that it is a gift from God (so there is no purpose to getting a big head about it nor looking down at another for not having the same gift) and it come with a function (that you have to figure out lol).

In Jewish teachings, Moses was the humblest man. With God's help, he took the Jewish people out of the 49th level of impurity, he yanked them right out of another nation that was happily enslaving them. He was a savior! Yet he was humble. According to the Bible, Miriam and Aaron spoke out against him, and yet he remained silent. According to the Oral Tradition, Moses's praises was sung in heavens, and again, he was silent. Neither one effected him -neither insult or praise went to his head. **sigh** I only wish I could do better...

But this is an ideal to come as close to as possible.

Empathy can also take us a long way. True we want to avoid pity parties, but a face of flint is not always called for either. At some point, "everyone needs a hand to hold onto.." as the song goes. Balance.


We have our own issues. Our own internal battles, our own external battles. It does not do us any good to keep investing ourselves in things that do not really help us grow, or that we have to pretend like we care about just to fit in somewhere. Once we stop looking to the right and to the left, and start looking straight at our true goals and ambitions and love suddenly our two tweeting birds will come to carry us to our throne. Cultivate these birds. Their strength is what will carry us to success!

Praise God.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Thoughts, Blogs, News

Kaguya at Notes of a Jewpanese blog says it seems that "diverse" equals "non-white".

And for all you NON- don't think about the Palestinians, just stick it to the Jews folks- Palestinians workers make the bulk of builders. Stopping settlement building the way they are doing it takes away their livelihood. Here's a post about that by Khalid Abu Toameh. The last time I wrote a piece he did, it got censured and taken down.

And finally, rest in peace, Piotr Stanczak.

North Korea tested more of their short range missiles. Are they unstoppable? Should somebody try to control them?

According to ABW at Diary of an Anxious Black Woman blog, princess Tiana is not even a real princess!

Some interesting play on words...
English: Black. Hebrew: ShaHor)

H*R*SH (HoReSH) =to plow into physical or mental objects. OR smooth.

R*H*SH (RaHaSH)= to move quickly and quietly

SH*H*R (SHaHaR) =morning


Now This is Outrageous

Aassociate director of the Center for Health Policy at Duke University, Frank Lombard, has been arrested for allegedly offering his adopted BLACK 5-year-old son up for sex over the internet. (Full story at News One)

I don't even want to bother with those who tune in to BET mess and then express outrage. Some of it could very well be fake outrage. I can't imagine that just because they maybe would to a tribute to MJ people would tune in. That means there is still hope for the station. Perhaps the goal is to regulate it rather than shut it down.

But adopting black children in the USA for the purpose of sex??!!

How will that child grow up? He's already molested obviously by the "father".


Month of Positive Solutions

Ehav from Hochmah and Musar is going to have discussions on possible solutions. October 2009, Don't miss out!

topics that he will deal with:

Defending BW's honor.

Strengthening BM through nationalism

Erasing Prejudice from Jewish society

Peace in the Middle East (Oh boy! Ehav.)

(I'd like to mention the book "Orot" by Rav Kook (translated by Naor Betzalel) in there is a topic of nationalism. Very good read (but complicated for me).

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Unfinished Business

I have a couple of series that I am in the middle of and will eventually finish, God willing.

There's the Kicking into Redemption mode. (Part 1, 2, 3, and 4)

And the Hair, Nose, and Skin Specialist. (here and here)

IR -and Class Tier Difference

Don't expect a polished work here. Just stating facts and musing.


My husband comes from an affluent family. They always had a maid. A live in maid. When he was a teenager, he and his sister went touring Europe -just them. There was no "capital" punishment in their home.

In contrast, I come from immigrants from the Carribean. My Mom was a CRN, my dad got whatever job he could. He would also help people file their taxes. We lived in an old Puerto Rican neighborhood where the summertime fun was opening the fire hydrant and splashing cars, people and anyone/thing else that wanted.

Slowly, my neighborhood changed. First the cops came. Everything was suspect and everything became wrong. They chased people, arrested gang bangers. The police would be impatient if the traffic was too slow and speak out on their car loud speaker. They even wanted to search my house but my mom would not let them in. lol! Yay, Mom!

My house was typical old country strict. I'd say the house had an enneagram type 1 there. Hardly hugs, chores expected to be done. Love shown in other ways though.

So I met my husband. At first I was not used to his way of life. I was even bothered by it. It annoyed me how he needed to be comfortable, resisting suffering or struggling. In fact, I probably broke all the rules found in all those self empowerment blogs nowadays! Hah!

But I think such a thing is possible, if the pair is smart and open minded. Being able to be understanding and appreciating but yet respectful of what one is used to or want is a must.


At times I feel like a reluctant queen. As a stay home mom, I feel upset when the house is not in order -especially if Hubby dares say anything about it. But then I realized, there is nothing stopping me from getting household help. Nothing but my own inhibitions.

Now, thank God, I have help coming in once a week. Sometimes twice a week. It's such a burden lifted off my back and I feel like the proper queen relegating duties and keeping the house right. Now, to work on having fun...

Gone to Natanya

The family packed up and headed for the one and a half hour trip to Natanya. We were headed for IKEA to get some needed furniture for the new place. It was a surprisingly pleasant trip and here are some highlights...

An Ethiopian man saw my son and just gave him a big smooch on the cheeks! lol! I laughed and looked at husband to see if he saw what happened. The Ethiopian saw me looking and realized that he was my husband, he asked him if he was. Hubby said yes. He puts his fist up and says, "Thank you!"

It seems IKEA got revamped and now had a kiddie play area and a restaurant. Woohoo! That really helped alot.

Its so much fun to be in big furniture stores, especially IKEA. It seems like the options are endless and then just when you think you've seen it all, the they have the "create your own" closet or whatever department.

Of course, I must admit we all love the humongous shopping carts they have. They are huge because they are meant to carry large boxed furniture.

And the prices were reasonable!

All in all it was a pleasant trip. It took up the whole day and we took the last bus (9.30 pm) back to Jerusalem. It was semi empty, yay! so we had practically the whole back of the bus --except for a passenger with his dog ( was that legal? Was he hiding out back there?).

Thank you, Kind One, for such a successful trip.